There are alot of people that love eachother but just can't make it work for one reason or another. I am still a firm believer that with the right professional help most of these instances would work out, but it takes both to be highly motivated to change and work through it. If both are not on board 100% , it will never work. Hard place with the medical issues. Have you guys had thos discussion on where this is likely to lead if things don't change ?
That doesn't make you a bad person, just makes you not want to be miserable.
If you don't love yourself to some extent then yes, it will be hard to have someone else do it for you. Being a homebody isn't necessarily a bad thing, but it will make meeting anybody virtually impossible. You have to find something in a social setting to do at some point, force yourself out.
I love my current wife and was willing to do whatever I had to stay with her, in the end the damage had been done and she is a very emotionless person which made it easy for her to walk away. Through this I have seen what really bothers me such as gratitude and willingness to sit and talk about issues on both sides, something she is not willing to do.
Those are all things I need to be looking for in my next relationship, whenever that will be. Those little things added with my age are going to the difficult part...